Just wanted to update those few who actually read this blog! We are starting to wrap up our time here in Salerno. A few days ago we returned from our Debrief conference in Donoratico, Italy. It was a time of reflection and, honestly, tears. I hadn’t realized how hard it was going to be to leave this place. I think we sometimes get so wrapped up in what’s next that we forget how to truly be present in the present. The Lord decided it was time for me to quit thinking about the future and listen and look at what was going on around me currently. So he stripped me of one of the things that affects me a lot, my sleep. I didn’t sleep but maybe 8 hours in 2 nights during Debrief, and it caused me to do what I should have been doing all along…fully rely on God for what was going on. I didn’t want to say goodbye to people or my time in Italy, and it was causing me to become numb to the fact that we were leaving. Which led to frustrations in all the other aspects of my life. So I finally listened to the Lord, broke down, had a good cry, and fully relied on Him to bring me through this goodbye-time. And He is being ever so gentle with me now.
If there is one thing that this year has taught me more than anything else, it’s that I have never really had to rely on the Lord for most of what goes on in my life. He has always been gracious to me, but I’ve never really known what it was like to trust Him in every aspect of my day-to-day living. And I NEED and HAVE TO HAVE that in order to function. We all do. It’s the way He made us and we can’t ignore it forever.
So right now I just ask that y’all will be praying for us as we end our time here and that we won’t look forward to what’s next and fully rely on God to be here with us and bring us through it. Love you all!
~ Christina
